when talking about being witch again, it's all said in the hypothetical. of course, he knows there's a way to be one once more, but it's never been an option for him. that path has been rightfully barricaded with a troll not allowing him to pass. over the years, kol's learned to accept his jealousy and resentment of never getting to be a witch in his true body.
he'd always known davina would make anything and everything happen for him. she's made him happy, helped him control his own anger, and even forgive those like his brothers and sister who had wronged him in the past. if he had asked her for the world, she'd deliver it to him on a golden platter.
he wants to be a witch. now, with it within arm's rest, he isn't so sure if it's possible. ridiculous, isn't it?
quite aware of how uncharacteristically quiet he is, he clears his throat. ]
Well, love… [ he'd thought perhaps placing his hand on top of hers and drawing it into his lap would give him the words he needed, but they've escaped even his attempt. he lets out a loud breath, looking at their kitchen table as if it has blueprints of how this will all go down—what words to say, what words to not say, the thoughts to have and the ones to leave behind.
playing with her fingers, he looks at her. ] It's a very big step. [ for him, for her, for them. ] There's a very big chance I'll get wrinkles now.
[ that's not one of his main worries, but it's easier to break uncertainties, doubts, and even excitement with humour. ]
[She laughs, before tucking her legs under herself and reaching up to her fingers against his temple, where she can envision patches of gray collecting, or crows feet extending up from his smile.]
I think wrinkles will make you look distinguished.
[Among other things.]
And I think it's only fair, as I'll be getting those eventually too.
[ she doesn't have to get any wrinkles, although kol isn't too keen to turn her. being a witch is what davina enjoys most. while he sometimes lives vicariously through her magic, he knows being a vampire would only smother her as it has him. he might have appeared to embrace it, but he's longed for magic for over a thousand years. to turn her would be to treat her as esther had treated him.
purposefully frowning against her fingers, he smiles, even if it physically exposes his anxieties. ]
You'd look rather cute with wrinkles, love. You'd make them look very in.
[ davina can wear a potato sack and he'd think she was working it like the models do those ridiculous outfits on a catwalk. ]
[She then shrugs, because she doesn't want to force him into making this choice. This isn't about children, really, or wanting to build a life with him. She loves the life they have and she doesn't want him to feel like she doesn't. But she remembers how it felt to do magic with him, and she would love to feel that feeling again, if he would be open to growing old with her.]
It's your choice. Especially with Rebekah taking the cure, soon you're going to be the only Original left. I wanted to give you the option.
[She isn't going to live forever, and she doesn't want him to be alone, with only the next generation, people who won't really know him the way they did for company.]
[ it's tempting to remain as the only one is on the tip of his tongue, but kol doesn't feel like joking about it. losing niklaus and elijah had been a blow to the mikaelson family and any chances of true closure, but it had also released kol from quite a lot of his own anxieties. he's now the oldest living vampire. it's a title he's held with great esteem, liking the fact he can pull the age card on almost any vampire now.
but he misses being a witch. ]
What do you think? [ he looks at her seriously, with no joking in sight, even though he does smile in the hopes of making this feel easier and less of a life-changing decision. ] Is being an Original Vampire far more prestigious than being a Mikaelson witch?
[ if he was one… he could finally prove just how powerful he really was. if he wasn't one… he knows what he loses if he remains a vampire. by no means has he ever come to terms with it. ]
I think that being a Mikaelson witch has way less baggage on it.
[Not that it's going to erase the things he's done, but as of now, Freya and Hope are the Mikaelson witches, and they're doing a lot to rehabilitate the name.]
But being an Original vampire does mean I have to worry a lot less about you getting hit by a bus or dying in a plane crash.
[Being effectively immortal does have some perks.]
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even though i'm excited for this concept, the fact you only have one icon is unforgivable. i'm sry.
when talking about being witch again, it's all said in the hypothetical. of course, he knows there's a way to be one once more, but it's never been an option for him. that path has been rightfully barricaded with a troll not allowing him to pass. over the years, kol's learned to accept his jealousy and resentment of never getting to be a witch in his true body.
he'd always known davina would make anything and everything happen for him. she's made him happy, helped him control his own anger, and even forgive those like his brothers and sister who had wronged him in the past. if he had asked her for the world, she'd deliver it to him on a golden platter.
he wants to be a witch. now, with it within arm's rest, he isn't so sure if it's possible. ridiculous, isn't it?
quite aware of how uncharacteristically quiet he is, he clears his throat. ]
Well, love… [ he'd thought perhaps placing his hand on top of hers and drawing it into his lap would give him the words he needed, but they've escaped even his attempt. he lets out a loud breath, looking at their kitchen table as if it has blueprints of how this will all go down—what words to say, what words to not say, the thoughts to have and the ones to leave behind.
playing with her fingers, he looks at her. ] It's a very big step. [ for him, for her, for them. ] There's a very big chance I'll get wrinkles now.
[ that's not one of his main worries, but it's easier to break uncertainties, doubts, and even excitement with humour. ]
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I think wrinkles will make you look distinguished.
[Among other things.]
And I think it's only fair, as I'll be getting those eventually too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hn-enjcgV1o
purposefully frowning against her fingers, he smiles, even if it physically exposes his anxieties. ]
You'd look rather cute with wrinkles, love. You'd make them look very in.
[ davina can wear a potato sack and he'd think she was working it like the models do those ridiculous outfits on a catwalk. ]
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[She then shrugs, because she doesn't want to force him into making this choice. This isn't about children, really, or wanting to build a life with him. She loves the life they have and she doesn't want him to feel like she doesn't. But she remembers how it felt to do magic with him, and she would love to feel that feeling again, if he would be open to growing old with her.]
It's your choice. Especially with Rebekah taking the cure, soon you're going to be the only Original left. I wanted to give you the option.
[She isn't going to live forever, and she doesn't want him to be alone, with only the next generation, people who won't really know him the way they did for company.]
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but he misses being a witch. ]
What do you think? [ he looks at her seriously, with no joking in sight, even though he does smile in the hopes of making this feel easier and less of a life-changing decision. ] Is being an Original Vampire far more prestigious than being a Mikaelson witch?
[ if he was one… he could finally prove just how powerful he really was. if he wasn't one… he knows what he loses if he remains a vampire. by no means has he ever come to terms with it. ]
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[Not that it's going to erase the things he's done, but as of now, Freya and Hope are the Mikaelson witches, and they're doing a lot to rehabilitate the name.]
But being an Original vampire does mean I have to worry a lot less about you getting hit by a bus or dying in a plane crash.
[Being effectively immortal does have some perks.]